I began radiation 2 weeks ago. 10 days down, 15 to go. So far, just having to go back and forth every day is the worst part. I will be so thankful if that is how it stays. I have black markings all on my right side and they are radiating 4 different places. It takes about 20 minutes to get there, 5 to get undressed and situated on the table, and then radiation might last 3 minutes:) Quite a bit different from the chemo.
Funny story from my first day. They showed me to a dressing room and told me to put on what gown. I pulled one out and spent about 5 minutes trying to figure out how to wear it. I finally stepped outside and asked for help....it was a laundry bag. I will share pictures so you might understand why I was confused. The therapist just laughed and said it was 1st day nerves.
The plan after radiation is to take Tamoxifen for the next 5-10 years and then I will be done. I don't want to take the medicine as I have read lots of negative things about side effects that comes with it. It is hard figuring out the right thing to do. I definitely don't want the cancer to come back. But I don't really want to be toothless, overweight, and have terrible joint pain every day either....decisions.
As we are nearing the end of treatment, I am dealing with more and more anxiety. The last few weeks have been hard for me. I don't want to be sick, but I have to figure out what my new normal looks like. I stand amazed at everything the Lord has done this past year in my life. He has met our every need and I know he will continue to do so (as our medical bills are steadily piling up). I get overwhelmed and then remember Joshua 1:9 and look back at everything we have been through. We are beyond blessed.
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